1989
Central Maine
1
The radio was playing "Winter Wonderland" when I blew into Mainely Manes. The wind and I tussled for the door, which contest of brute strength I won, but not easily.
"Brr!" I told Stacy the receptionist, and she nodded, screwing her tiny face up into an eloquent grimace of distaste. I sighed and went to hang up my parka.
"Winter Wonderland" burbled merrily on and I wondered, as I struggled with the parka's zipper, if it had been written by a Floridian, a Californian or a citizen of the southwestern desert. Clearly, it couldn't have been written by anyone who had actually experienced winter, Maine-style.
"Is it really only December seventh?" I demanded, crossing the room to Philip's station.
"It gets worse before it gets better, darling." He shook the apron out with a magician's swirl and fastened it around my neck while I held my hair high. "You ought to be used to this by now," he said, coming around to the counter for his comb. "An old Mainer like you."
"Every Mainer I talk to hates winter," I told him. "The bangs need to be cut."
"Talk to the ice-fishing and snowmobile crowd," Philip recommended. Abruptly, he shook his head, put the comb down with a small, petulant click and stepped behind the chair. He used both hands to lift my hair and caught my eye in the mirror.
"You really ought to do something with this."
"I am doing something with it," I said. "I'm letting it grow."
"Don't be a bitch, darling." Philip said placidly. "Letting it grow was one of your better ideas–you're light-years ahead of that butch 'do you had when you hit town. Now we need to refine the look."
I eyed his reflection. "This sounds suspiciously like the sell for a fifty-dollar perm."
"Good God, do I look like a barbarian?" he demanded, stung to the core of his artistic soul. "What you absolutely do not need is more mass around that face!"
"I knew it was going to come down to my face," I said resignedly. "It always does. Forget the bangs, OK? I'll grow 'em to my knees."
Philip sighed and lowered my hair gently to my shoulders before coming around to the front of the chair. He leaned one hip against the counter and crossed his arms over his meager chest.
"It's not a bad face. In fact, it's rather–interesting. Thin and interesting. Thin is the operative word, darling. All those thick, luscious waves simply overpower you. It's time for A Look."
"It's time for my bangs to get cut," I told him. "And then it's time for me to finish the rest of my errands and go to work. I'm thirty-five years old–I don't need A Look, I need a retirement account."
Philip shook his head, shifted and reached for the comb and scissors. "Do me a favor, will you, Jen?" he asked, combing my bangs over my eyebrows.
I squinted my eyes shut. "What's that?"
"Don't tell anybody you get your hair cut here."
*
The wind blew me up and down Main Street, releasing and reclaiming me in turn at LaVerdiere's drug store, Dore's Hardware and Mother's Pantry. I tucked the last of my purchases into a canvas carryall, zipped the top and slung the thing over my shoulder before surrendering myself to the wind for the two block walk to the offices of the Wimsy Voice. I would be forty-five minutes ahead of my shift, but I would be out of the wind. If God and the ancient steam heat plant were good, I'd even be warm.
I crossed Main Street with the wind at my back and turned the corner into Preble just as a particularly playful gust descended.
The new wind snatched the bag on my shoulder, twisted it and jerked it to my elbow, at the same time flinging a scatter of gravel into my face. I swore, grabbed, then staggered as the wind whooshed around me like a pack of high-spirited puppies and roared off, abruptly abandoning me to gravity.
A hand caught my elbow, steadying me. City reflexes kicked in and I jerked back. The hand tightened slightly, keeping me on my feet. I shook the hair out of my face and the gravel out of my eyes, looked–and smiled.
"Fox."
"Jennifer," he returned seriously. "Nice day."
"I've seen nicer," I told him. He raised an eyebrow and released my elbow.
"Recently?"
I laughed. "Point."
He turned and walked with me down Preble, toward the river and the Voice building.
"Done shopping for the day?"
I nodded. "Heading for work, frigid but early. Murphy's Law dictates that the steam plant will either not be working at all or so well we'll have to open the windows, and that it won't matter anyhow, because Bill Jacques will send me out to do a man-on-the-street."
Fox smiled his slight smile. "That sounds remarkably like Bill," he agreed and tipped his head. "Are you early enough so you can stop for a cup of coffee?"
Michaelson's Gourmet Coffee Shop and Café was right across Preble Street, and a steaming cup of Swiss-chocolate-almond sounded like pure heaven. I smiled.
"Good idea."
*
We hung our jackets on pegs by the door and found a table in an alcove dominated by a large plant of the type known as "foliage". Micky Michaelson came bustling over, pad ready, smile on his mustached face.
"Mr. Foxwell," he said, nodding respectfully, as one does to summer people or other privileged classes. For me, it was a wider smile and a casual, "Hi, Jenny."
We ordered hazelnut for Fox, Swiss-chocolate-almond for me and Micky swooped away, returning in less than a minute with two thick white mugs, gently steaming, and a pitcher of honest-to-goodness cow's cream.
"Enjoy," he said, and left us to it.
I poured cream, stirred, and Fox did the same. Neither of us bothered with sugar.
Fox is David Foxwell, American citizen of various foreign parts, most lately out of Austin, Texas. He calls himself a computer geek, which is understatement. In the computer geek world, he's royalty: Lord Fox. In Wimsy, he runs a computer bulletin board called Random Access, which is where I met him. He's thirty-five years old, a widower, and he came to Maine to kill a man.
I wrapped my hands around the warm white mug and breathed in Swiss-chocolate-almond steam. "Yum," I said and sighed in bliss.
"Reconciled to winter now?" Fox murmured and I glanced over to him.
Fox looks more or less like his namesake–auburn hair and honey skin, long nose and pointed chin. His eyes are an extremely dark blue, black in dim lighting. He smiles, very slightly. I've yet to hear him laugh.
"You do not reconcile with a Maine winter, you grit your teeth and endure it," I told him. "If I didn't live here, I wouldn't."
He sipped his coffee, watching me over the mug's rim. "You could move back to Baltimore."
I shook my head. "I own that house on the Point. I'd have to sell to afford the move and the housing market in Maine doesn't exist–especially for beat-up old farmhouses and ten acres of overgrown field."
"So you're stuck."
I frowned, considering that while I sipped coffee.
"I don't think stuck," I said, slowly. "I don't think that. See, when Aunt Jen left me the house, I came up here with the intention of putting it right on the market. Take the money and run. Thought maybe I'd get enough for a down payment on one of those tiny row houses on Tyson Street—" Like Fox would know where Tyson Street was. I threw him an apologetic glance. "Right downtown," I explained. "Walking distance of the harbor and the music clubs, Lexington Market…"
He nodded. "But you didn't sell," he prompted. "Why not?"
I shrugged, feeling rather inadequate to the task of explaining Wimsy's lure.
"It was–quiet," I managed eventually. "I grew up in the suburbs–moved to the city at seventeen and never moved out. Three a.m., four–there's always some noise, somewhere. Traffic, sirens, radios, the conversation from the apartment next door… The first morning I woke up in that house–my house–you know what I heard?" I didn't wait for him to shake his head. "Birds. Not pigeons. Birds. I must've laid in bed an hour, listening to the birds sing." I shook my head.
"I don't like winter," I said, "but I can put up with it, for the rest of the year." I sipped coffee and glanced over. Fox was watching me with quiet attention, long fingers wrapped loosely 'round his mug.
"There's one thing I do like about the winter," I said. "When it gets cold enough–when ice is in as Harry says? You can walk right out on the Smoke–walk across to Waterville, if you want to." I hesitated, suddenly wondering…
"Are you leaving?" I blurted, because Fox's business was done and there was nothing to tie him here. Just because he'd hung around an extra couple months after Reverend Stern had reaped what he'd sown… "No reason for you to put up with a Wimsy winter. Just pack up your computers and head back to Texas."
"Texas does not lie particularly close to my heart," he said calmly. "And I don't think I've seen a real winter since we were in Germany, when I was fourteen." He finished his coffee and gave me one of his slight smiles. "I think I'd enjoy walking across the Smoke."
I returned the smile, then moved my eyes on the pretext of finishing my own coffee. Fox would be in Wimsy for the winter. It was ridiculous how happy that made me.
"When does your shift start?"
I put the mug down. "Six."
"Ah." He glanced down at his wrist. "Five-fifty-four."
"Time to move on." I reached for my pocketbook.
Fox waved a lazy hand. "I'll get it," he said, and was gone before I could protest.
Shaking my head, I wriggled out from beneath the foliage and retrieved my jacket from its peg. I was still struggling with the damned zipper when Fox reappeared and pulled on his own coat. His zipper went up in one effortless glide; he pulled the hood over his hair.
I finally conquered my zipper and pulled the parka's collar up in lieu of the hood I didn't have. Fox opened the door and we went out together, into a wind that seemed not as cold as it had been.