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Chapter Six

Standing there in front of the mirror hung on the back of the door, wearing clothes made for my father, I finally began to see what others had told me for as long as I could remember. In a way, when I held my head high and turned it to the right a bit, I did look like him, but only just barely, James stood behind me and I smiled when I saw his reflection nod solemnly. If it were a jury trial, I would have been convicted.

In reality, my confusion was not that odd. My father had been lost in Chaos when I was still just a wee babe. I never saw him, so my impressions of what he looked like came from a legion of diverse sources. Some, like the stone statue that was part of the monument for my mother, were made by people who had actually known Cardew. Others, from anonymous wood carvings to a bronze statue in miniature, were made by artisans who were working from stories and their own imaginations.

Forever and ever my image of Cardew had come from the statue of him that watched over my mother’s grave. Literally larger than life, his eyes had the steady gaze of a hawk, and the beard tracing his jawline did not soften the angularity of his face at all. Heavy of chest and thighs, he stood poised, watching and waiting for my mother to join him, though I had always imagined him waiting for his sons to ride into battle at his side.

Unlike my brothers, I often found myself thinking of our father as Cardew the hero, not my father. For a while I felt like an outsider because of that, then I told Geoff about how I felt. As per usual he laughed away my concerns and explained it to me very succinctly. Because I did not remember our father, my total experience of him had come in the stories told by villagers and Aunt Ethelin. No one, in telling stories of Cardew, stressed his family life—other than to say he loved his wife. The stories in which he lived were grand tales of magick and battles and Chaos.

“You have to remember, Locke,” Geoff told me, “any hero would pale in comparison to the stories told about him. All you have to remember about our father is that he was real and he loved us. If he lived in our memory in that way, I think he would be happy.”

I had no doubt my brother was right in his assessment—and he’d been eight at the time of our father’s disappearance, so he did have strong memories of him. Even so, Geoff’s assurances did little to lighten the burden we inherited from Cardew. We were the sons of a hero, and from the first my grandfather seemed intent on training us to accept that mantle.

But am I a suitable candidate to do that?

James coughed lightly. “The tunic and trousers are suitable, if a touch large. Here, try on this jacket.”

James might have felt the clothes were appropriate, but I found them somewhat annoying. The black trousers came all the way up to cover me nearly to my breastbone and were held up by suspenders. Of course, to be stylish, a slender leather belt with a silver clasp held them tight around my waist. The tunic had been made of a nearly iridescent green silk that I liked very much, but James had forced me to button it tightly to my throat—which was the only point at which the clothes were actually not too large. A piece of starched stiff black fabric slid beneath the collar and crossed in front, to be pinned in place with a silver stickpin. Its only virtue, as nearly as I could see, was that the stickpin had been fitted with a piece of triangular malachite that matched my tunic.

The black jacket James held out for me fitted, more or less. The sleeves ended at my elbows and had three raven’s feathers dangling down along my forearms. The jacket itself stopped at my waist and was held loosely closed in the front by a silver chain looped between two buttons. As I tugged the sleeves of my tunic down to a comfortable length, James fastened the front, then backed away and smiled. “Yes, excellent.”

“The canvas thanks the artist.” I gave him a grin, then worked my arms forward and back to test the range of motion the jacket gave me. It tightened across the shoulders when I crossed my forearms, and I could have split it down the back, but I refrained from over-stressing it. I did not exactly feel comfortable in the clothes I had been given, but I knew there were other, far more torturous garments hidden in the closet, so I saw no reason in taking chances.

As I worked my arms around I balled my fists. I felt an odd sensation in my right ring finger. For a second or two I experienced a strange sense of loss or incompleteness. It was as if a weight I expected to feel on that hand had gone missing.

“A ring, James.” I frowned as the sensation drained out of my hand. “Dressed up like this, I feel as though I should have a ring or something.”

James looked at me with a blank stare. “Master Cardew was not much given to wearing jewelry, Master Lachlan.”

“But I thought my grandfather, mother, and aunt all traveled here to Herakopolis for a ceremony in which Emperor Daclones made him a Knight of the Empire. Someone, Aunt Ethelin most likely, told me that Cardew wore a ring to mark that occasion.”

The elderly servant shrugged his shoulders. “I recall the ring, but I am unaware of what became of it. I could try to find you something suitable, though I’m not certain where at this hour.”

I shook my head. “No matter. My father’s ring would be Geoff’s by birthright anyway, and I’ve never worn rings either, so I’m not sure why I even thought of it.” The image staring back at me from the mirror melded with that of my father’s statue, and I saw the ring the sculptor had added to his hand. That must be it.

“As you will, sir.” James looked me up and down. “Will there be anything else?”

Backing away from the mirror, I swung the door open and looked out into the weapons chamber. “Are you certain this belt will support one of these daggers?”

“Why would it be necessary for it to do that, Master Lachlan?” James shook his head. “Unlike your month on the trail, you are not required to provide your own tableware for this evening’s festivities. And, despite what you might have heard about the politics here in the capital, it is quite unlikely a fight will break out this evening.”

I laughed lightly at the image of some of the caravaners being invited to the sort of party that required my attire. “It is not that, James. It is just that I do not have a sash with my rank badges sewn on it, so I thought wearing a dagger would be sufficient to let people know I am ranked in that discipline.”

James rolled his eyes skyward. “What must they teach you in the provinces?”

“Huh?”

“Master Lachlan, as the party is being held in the home of your grandmother, you are one of the hosts. As such, your rank badges have been sewn on to a banner that will hang in the entryway. For the parties you will attend later in the week we will see to it that you have been provided with suitable rank insignia to satisfy social convention.”

I bowed my head to him. “I see my social success is well warded in your hands. To you I commend it, then.”

“It will be my pleasure to serve you in that capacity as long as I am able, sir.” James waved me toward the door. “Your guests await.”

O O O

Out in the provinces we handled the Bear’s Eve celebration a bit differently than they did in the capital— and probably any other real city—of the Empire. In Stone Rapids everyone brought food according to a list created by a cabal of elderly widows. No one was ever asked to bring more than they could afford, and whatever someone was selected to bring was something of which they could be proud. Being as how Bear’s Eve falls in the middle of the winter, many items were put up after the harvest and served to make folks mindful of the past year.

Our celebration lasts only one night, the actual eve of the month of the Bear. We build a big old roaring fire in the town hall and everyone comes in their best clothing. People have generally exchanged gifts within their families before coming to the celebration, but presents are given to neighbors at the big town gathering, and a special show is made of things exchanged between people who have grown distant or hostile during the preceding year.

After all, as everyone knows, it is an ill omen to go into a new year bearing anyone malice. The giving of gifts makes it easier to dismiss past wrongs, and it also adds a bit of brightness to the long, dark nights of winter. The food and drink and singing and dancing all bring to mind the warmer, happier times of the year, again making winter much more bearable.

In the capital the parties start up to a week before the actual holiday. Whereas Stone Rapids held the party in the town hall, my grandmother just used the ballroom in her house—which looked to me to be much larger than Stone Rapids’s town hall anyway. A row of tables formed an island laden with victuals while smaller, round tables near the corners of the room bore polished goblets of silver and pitchers full of wine.

The guests, who began arriving an hour or two after sundown, all seemed in a festive mood and genuinely happy to be attending. They were met at the door by one of Nob’s four grandsons. He relieved them of their cloaks and coats and also accepted from them whatever gift they had brought for my grandmother. Usually the gifts were small and offered out of social convention, but those brought by close friends instead of social acquaintances were more substantial and handled with extreme care.

James then led the guests to the receiving line and introduced them to my grandmother. He kept his voice just loud enough so that I could hear the name, for which I was very grateful. I found myself able to remember names for as long as it took the guests to work their way down from where my grandmother was seated in a big chair, past Marija, to me. Once they had passed beyond me to other family friends and, finally, the Imperial Warlord, I forgot them entirely and prepared myself for the next person.

In the background, however, Nob’s other three grandsons were very busy. When James would announce a guest, they would sort through a whole roomful of small wooden boxes wrapped with bright ribbons. Finding the box that matched the person, they would put the box on the table at the end of the line. As a result, when the guests finished their introductions, they would find a Bear’s Eve gift waiting for them.

Many of the men I met that evening told me they had known my father or had ridden with him. They grasped my forearm with a strong grip, just as my grandfather had taught all of us, and I returned the gesture solemnly. Most of the women allowed me to kiss their hands, with the notable exceptions of those who were the closest to my grandmother in age and acquaintance. They hugged me and gave me light kisses on my cheeks. They often whispered to me that it had been a long time since they had seen my grandmother as happy as she seemed with me in the capital.

This I took to be very polite lying on their parts. Then, attempting to justify whatever my grandmother felt for me, I made the social error of introducing Marija to people. It seemed only right to me, as there she was standing behind and beside my grandmother’s chair, but apparently such things are not done. She was, after all, a servant in the household, but most people were polite and wished her the joy of the season. Finally, James corrected me, and I blushed, but Marija’s warm smile took the sting out of my embarrassment.

Of all the guests, I knew only one and was quite surprised to see her. The evergreen gown Xoayya wore set off her red hair. The tight bodice and low cut of the neckline emphasized her breasts. She clearly was not a child, but she still lacked the full self-assurance of some of the other girls her age whom I had already met. The conservative application of cosmetics brought a bit more color to her face and flesh, as well as more emphasis to her large blue eyes.

I kissed her hand. “I had not expected to see you here, Mistress Xoayya.”

Something halfway between surprise and distraction flickered through her eyes to greet my use of her name. “My grandmother is good friends with your grandmother, Master Lachlan. We have met before?”

I hesitated, then nodded. “On the trail, coming into Herakopolis from the City of Sorcerers.”

“I do recall that, I think.” She graced me with a smile. “Perhaps you will dance with me later?”

“I hadn’t thought …”

“Oh, you will.” Her voice carried with it an assurance I’d not heard from her before.

“But …” I started to offer a protest, but she freed her hand from mine and moved further along the line. I glanced over at Marija and saw her hiding a giggle behind her hand, but she didn’t share her amusement before another guest demanded my attention.

About halfway through the guest arrivals a most extraordinary thing happened. The door opened and a tall young man whipped his cape at Nob’s grandson Carl. Beneath it he wore a military uniform, but hardly the sort of dressy version I had seen parade past me so far in the evening. Despite the Warlord himself being dressed in clothing that looked more utilitarian than formal, the brash young man’s arrival started an alarm bell tolling in my head.

At least a head taller than me, his brown hair, eyes, and something else intangible reminded me of my brother Dalt. Still the look of intensity on his face and his long, stringy moustache made him far more alive and animated than I’d ever seen Dalt even at the best of times. Whereas my brother seemed to revel in brooding, this man clearly approached life with a fire that would take lots and lots of dousing before it would go out.

As he cut around the line of people waiting for James to announce them, I thought him a local soldier who had decided to attend uninvited. I started to move and intercept him, but the odd grin on Carl’s face and the way James held the other guests back kept me from doing anything rash. I was glad I had not acted when I saw the happiness in my grandmother’s eyes when the soldier dropped to one knee in front of her.

“Forgive me for coming without warning.”

She held his face in her two hands. “There are no unwelcome guests on Bear’s Eve, not that you would ever be unwelcome here.” She stroked his hair and tugged at it playfully where it extended over his collar in the back. “I was hoping you would be here.”

Grandmother looked over at me and beckoned me forward. “Lachlan, meet your cousin, Christoforos.”

The man stood again and towered over me. “Kit. Welcome, Lachlan.”

“Locke.” I took his arm and grasped it firmly just below the elbow. “Best of the season to you.”

“And you.”

As we broke our grip, James directed Kit to take up a place next to me in the receiving line. Kit nodded his acquiescence, then shivered. “I should have waited for another hour and escaped this duty.”

I must have looked stricken. “Another hour?”

He threw me a wink. “Likely not that long.” He let his voice get a bit louder and added, “Of course, were I standing next to Marija, I would find the time would pass much, much too swiftly.”

Marija gave him a smile in return that was all cat to his being a mouse. “Swiftly for you perhaps, Master Christoforos.”

Kit clutched a hand to his chest. “You wound me.”

“You will recover, I think, my lord.” Marija smiled at me, and added, “He has all the other times.”

The resumption of guest flow put an end to their banter. One old soldier tapped Kit’s company badge and noted that he, too, had belonged to the Emperor’s Horse Guards. “I had heard they were up on the Menal/Chaos border for their winter tour.”

“We still are, but the capital still wants reports coming in and has orders coming out, so I am here in service to the Emperor.” Kit gave the man a salute and thanked him for attending the party. “I will be certain to tell Colonel Grimands I met you.”

So sharply removed from his easy exchange with Marija was his reaction to the soldier that I knew instantly Kit had lied to the man. I waited for the soldier to become absorbed in his conversation with the Warlord, then, with a smile plastered on my face, I whispered, “You were not sent back to the capital as a messenger, were you?”

Kit’s smile eroded at the corners for a heartbeat, then he glanced down at me. “Military secrets are not the stuff of idle party chatter, Locke.” He glanced around the room, then back at me again. “Would it be paranoia or just common sense to imagine at least one person here knows someone who might be a member of the Black Church?”

I shrugged. “For all I know, everyone here might be …” As he slowly started to nod, I let my voice trail off. “Blooded on first thrust.”

Kit laughed aloud. “It’s been a long time since I’ve heard that little saying. I saw your lips moving, but I heard Audin’s voice. How … amusing.”

The tone I heard in Kit’s voice concerning Audin irritated me, but no verbal riposte came to me, so I remained silent. I went back to introducing myself to countless people whom I promptly forgot. Finally, as the last couple moved through the line, I stamped some feeling back into my feet and turned to speak to Kit, but he’d vanished. I looked back to talk with Marija, but she had gone to get the wheeled wicker chair Grandmother used to get around, and Grandmother was engaged in conversation with two of her dowager friends.

I felt abandoned for a moment, then my stomach rumbled. As a host of the party it struck me I should certainly see that the food was fit for consumption, so I headed for the nearest table. Unfortunately for me, sitting in a half-opened shell of some sort, on a bed of ice, I saw reddish white things that looked like the tail end of some very fleshy insects. People seemed to be enjoying them with great relish, but I was new to seafood, and it looked as if one had to be at least an Apprentice in some culinary discipline to be able to even get at the meat.

“Eating a tsoerit is worth the effort.”

I turned and found Xoayya stand beside me. “I’ve never seen one before. I wouldn’t know how to start— and I’m not certain it would appeal to me.”

“It should, really. Tsoerits are remarkable creatures. They never stop growing. When their carapace becomes too confining, they slip from it and grow another. In one life they endure multiple rebirths.” She smiled and focused distantly. “Perhaps an allegory for our lives.”

I shook my head. “I don’t think I understand your point.”

“No?” She pointed to where my family’s rank banners were displayed in the foyer. “Those banners define us, and even confine us, much as the tsoerit’s shell defines and confines him. That says what you are, and if your ranks and disciplines are not correct or high enough, you are barred from some things. As we change, as we learn more and become better at what we do, we shed those old ranks and banners and become defined by new symbols.”

“That life moves in stages is obvious, Mistress. People move through infancy, childhood, adolescence, adulthood, and then old age.”

“Don’t forget death.”

“I don’t think of death as a life stage. It ends life altogether.”

“But that ending becomes a new beginning as our souls are clothed with new flesh, and we are sent back to live again.”

I nodded. “Of course, and in that way, I guess, death is a stage of life. What I’m saying is that your observation is obvious.”

That brought a smile to her face. “Is it? For moving through all these stages of life, what is the tsoerit’s purpose?”

“Purpose?” I shook my head. “I don’t know? To propagate?”

“For some, perhaps.” She pointed a delicate finger at the chilling tsoerit carcasses. “For these their purpose was to be eaten. From the moment they were born, they were destined to be here, now, sating hunger.”

“But perhaps that’s not true.”

“But they are here, aren’t they?”

I recognized the fact that we were arguing free will and fate. While I didn’t think a tsoerit had enough brainpower to really have free will, I couldn’t imagine the sole purpose for these creatures being to fill up a hole in some mage’s future vision of this party. “You’re using a circular argument here. You’re saying that because they are here, they were destined to be here.”

“And you don’t believe that?”

“No.”

“Then why are you here?” She opened her arms. “Aren’t you here because you are destined to be here?”

I shook my head. “I don’t think so. I’m here because I beat my brothers out for the honor of being here.”

“Is that the only reason?”

“I don’t know.” I shrugged. “I know of no other reason for my being here.”

“You will find one.” Again she spoke with an iron certainty in her voice that I found rather spooky. The fact that she was looking right through me at the time didn’t help matters much either.

“And what would that reason be?”

Xoayya laughed lightly. “I don’t know, I just know there is one. The problem of being cursed with second sight is that I do not see everything or even most things. I get glimpses.”

“Such as?”

“Such as my grandmother needing me.” Xoayya laid a hand lightly on my shoulder. “There is much for you to learn, Locke, and learn you shall. Then we will dance.” She laughed lightly, then vanished into the crowd.

Now feeling confused as well as abandoned, I reminded myself that I had a duty as the host of the party. In keeping with it, I began to look around for our guest of honor, the Imperial Warlord. Even with him being as tall as he was, I had no luck in spotting his head above those of the crowd. I started making my way through the press of people to find another vantage point from which to look for him, but when I did so, I still could not find him. I did, however, see Kit wandering out of the ballroom and deeper into the house.

Probably off to find some more suitable clothing. Utterly at a loss, I decided to look for James, to have him tell me what to do. I made it as far as the hallway outside the ballroom, but I couldn’t even see one of Nob’s grandsons, much less James. I stopped for a moment and scratched my head, then I heard the sound of footsteps from the floor above. The noise ceased, and I frowned.

Whoever or whatever was upstairs, it had just entered my suite.

I ran to the nearest set of stairs and sprinted up them two at a time. Something clicked inside my head, and I started to think in the tactical patterns my grandfather had beaten into me with repeated lessons. One step into the room and I could easily free one of the swords from the rack just inside the door. I smiled because as soon as that bit of strategy occurred to me, I knew Cardew had placed the weapons on the right side of the doorway with a mind to their utility as well as display.

Whoever was in my room had lit the lamp on the table across from the door and had left the door ajar. I pushed it open with my left hand and, with my right hand, twisted a rapier free of the rack. “I don’t know who you are, but it is a poor thing to rob your hostess at a Bear’s Eve celebration.” Shutting the door behind me to prevent their escape, I leveled the blade at the two men looking at the spiral of daggers on the left hand wall.

Whatever else I had planned to say evaporated from my mind. Their faces half-hidden in shadows cast by the lamp, Kit and Garn Drustorn regarded me with a look that dismissed my threat. In his hands Kit held a dagger that even I could tell, in the weak lamplight, had not been made in the Empire.

“It might be rude, as we’ve just met, but I will kill you, cousin, in a heartbeat, unless you can satisfy my curiosity.” I centered the rapier’s point on his chest. “You’ve not just ridden in from Chaos, so what is a Bharashadi dagger doing in the possession of one of the Emperor’s scouts and where, on this side of the Ward Walls, did you find it?”



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