In Virginia, summer is the only reliable season: you know it's going to be hot and humid.
Otherwise . . . well, Derek Secrest's boyhood recollections of winter included Christmas days outdoors in shirtsleeves, but also of freezing his butt off shoveling two feet of blizzard out from around his dad's car in latitudes where you weren't supposed to need a garage except perhaps as a glorified tool shed. Likewise, spring and autumn could be a damp misery of drizzly chill that lent the tourist ads every quality of a joke except humor.
But sometimes those ads told the truth—and less than the truth. Autumn really could fulfill all the promise of Indian summer for a few days when old memories crowded around and you wanted time to stand still. And spring, at its best, seemed to justify the universe by sheer, throat-hurting beauty.
Today was that kind of day: past the full glory of azaleas and dogwoods, for this was mid-May, but still partaking of that fragile, fleeting perfection.
So, wondered Derek with twenty-two-year-old impatience, what the hell am I doing indoors?
He knew the official answer, the reason they'd given him when he'd been ordered up here from Pensacola: research. It told him precisely nothing. As far as he could see, the only research he was doing was determining experimentally whether it was possible to be literally bored to death.
Cruelly, he could even glimpse the gorgeous day through the window of the waiting room where he sat—and sat, and sat—with an assortment of other uniformed people. It would have been a lovely view if he'd been in the mood to appreciate it. Not all of the northern Virginia landscape had vanished under endless rows of gratuitously undistinguished townhouses containing government employees who hadn't yet stolen enough of the taxpayers' money to afford something more pretentious. And this installation, to which he'd been bused after landing at Andrews Air Force Base across the Potomac, was pretty out of the way. In fact, he wasn't clear on just exactly where it was—and this was not unfamiliar territory to him. Curious.
Actually, there was a lot that was curious about this whole business. Naval Aviation Officer Candidates like himself were used to participating in experiments on a voluntary basis—really voluntary, for there was never any shortage of volunteers. Why should there be? As long as you were sitting at a keyboard performing some routine task as fast as you could while occasionally being stung by a harmless but irritating electric shock, or doing something else equally idiotic, you at least weren't getting yelled at by your drill instructor.
This time, though, they hadn't asked for volunteers. . . .
The outside door of the waiting room opened, derailing Derek's train of thought. He had to fight his impulse to stand up and come to attention, for the man who entered wore Navy short-sleeved whites like himself—but with the two gold stripes of a full lieutenant on his shoulder boards, rather than the tiny gold anchor that adorned Derek's. You're not at Pensacola, dummy! he reminded himself. And this guy doesn't work for Training Command.
The lieutenant looked around, saw an empty chair beside Derek, and walked over. "This seat taken?" he asked in a vaguely Gulf Coast-accented baritone.
Again, Derek had to restrain his leg muscles from propelling him up out of his chair. "Oh no, sir!"
The lieutenant gave a lazy smile as he eased himself down. "Hey, relax, Candidate! I'm not here to dick you over."
Derek really did relax. The lieutenant's smile had that effect. He even found himself able to look past the rank insignia at individual details.
The lieutenant's name tag read "Rinnard." He wore pilot's wings on his left breast above a row and a half of ribbons. (Derek grew painfully aware that he wore only the red-and-yellow ribbon of the National Defense Medal—the "walk-and-talk ribbon.") Normally, those golden wings would have inspired an awe that transcended even their wearer's exalted—to an NAOC, anyway—rank. But Derek found himself looking beyond even that, and wondering why he did.
Granted, the lieutenant was tall, well-built, and handsome in a dark swashbuckling way. But there was something beyond looks—something hard to define. It probably had to do with that smile. But, for whatever reason, the lieutenant oozed a quality that drew every eye in a room as surely as though by magnetism or gravity. Maybe it was what people meant when they spoke of "charisma."
Lieutenant Rinnard had evidently been studying him as well. "You must be just back from Tyndall." He indicated the four tiny gold bars above Derek's name tag. "Congratulations."
This guy had been through Pensacola—that much would have been clear even without the evidence of his pilot's wings. He knew Derek had completed land survival training at Tyndall Air Force Base, north of Panama City, and thereby cleared the last real hurdle before commissioning. He also knew what the four little gold bars meant: Derek was of above-average "candidate officer" rank in his last week in NAOCS, just barely below the godlike level of the Marine drill instructors in the terrorized eyes of the "poopies," as the new arrivals in the hell of Indoctrination Battalion were called.
"Uh, thank you, sir. Yes, but . . ." Military propriety struggled with the urge to blurt out the confidences that this man seemed to invite. "Yes, only I'm . . . that is . . ."
"Only you're here instead, and missing your chance to dump on the poopies like you got dumped on," the lieutenant finished for him sympathetically.
"Yes, sir. And also missing the chance to graduate with my class." There, he'd said it. He wasn't sure this hotshot would understand. He wasn't sure he understood it himself. Sergeant McManus is a sadistic, semi-literate redneck, he thought savagely. So why does it mean so much to me to be able to march out of that hall with Class 22-14, wearing ensign's shoulder boards, and have him standing there at the foot of the steps, and take my first-ever salute from him?
But the lieutenant did understand. "Well ain't that a shit sandwich? You'll have to get commissioned with a later class. You must have been ordered here like me."
Derek emerged from his self-pity into an embarrassed awareness that he might, just possibly, not be the only one here against his will. "Yes, sir. I wasn't told anything about it. Does the lieutenant know—?"
"Lighten up! You're not at Pensacola!" The same inhibitions-dissolving smile flashed.
"Uh, no, sir, I'm not." Derek swallowed before pronouncing the forbidden pronoun. "Do you know what's going on here?"
"Haven't a clue. I was aboard Reagan, off Rosie Roads for an operational readiness exercise, when I got my orders. Even the skipper of my squadron—that's VF 98—said he didn't know what it was all about. And I believe him. He was ricocheting off the walls at losing one of his pilots just before an OPREDEX."
Derek's jaw dropped. VF 98 was one of the first squadrons to have gotten the new advanced two-seat fighter, just arriving in the fleet to replace the obsolescent F/A-18F. "So you fly the F-39, sir?" he asked in awe.
"Yep. Is that what you want to pilot?"
Derek's ardor slumped a little. "Actually, sir, I'm in flight officer training. My eyesight—"
"—Isn't quite absolutely perfect," the lieutenant finished for him.
"Twenty-forty in one eye," Derek confirmed ruefully. "But I do want to be a radar intercept operator in F-39s."
"Listen, we need RIOs just as much as we need pilots. Mine's a damned good man. I only hope the Ops officer will be able to schedule some flight time for him while I'm here doing whatever it is we're doing. Oh, by the way, I'm Paul Rinnard." The lieutenant extended his hand.
Derek took the proffered hand gingerly. "Derek Secrest, sir."
"Anyway, I don't think it's just a coincidence that my orders came just a few weeks after we were given those new tests—you know, with the weird helmet gizmo they put over your head, and the pills that make you feel woozy the rest of the day."
"But I thought that was just part of the induction physical at Pensacola."
"Nope. Word is that everybody in the fleet has been getting it. And, I suppose, not just the fleet." Rinnard indicated the rainbow of uniforms in the waiting room.
The inner door opened, and a harried-looking Air Force technical sergeant emerged, consulting a clipboard. "All right, you're next. . . ." He looked slightly askance at Derek's shoulder boards. "Er, Midshipman Secrest."
Derek gritted his teeth at the common but mortifying error. Midshipman indeed! He remembered when they'd brought some fourth-year Naval Academy pukes—they were undergraduates, for God's sake!—through Pensacola for aviation orientation. He'd personally taken great satisfaction in running their supercilious butts into the sand on the cross-country course.
But the tech sergeant was—for another week, at least—his senior by one grade, and he just had to take it. "Here," he mumbled, getting to his feet.
Lieutenant Rinnard looked up slowly. "That's Candidate Secrest, Airman," he corrected in a very quiet, very smooth voice—a voice which held something below the level of sound, something of which everyone in earshot was conscious, judging from all the raised heads.
Sweat popped out on the tech sergeant's brow. "Ah . . . that is . . . of course, sir. This way, if you please, sir."
It took a heartbeat for Derek to realize that the second "sir" had been addressed to him. He gave Rinnard a look that held something more than mere gratitude, then followed the tech sergeant through the door.
Derek didn't waste his breath kvetching about his presence here to the severe late-middle-aged woman in the white lab coat, whose office name-plate read Rosa Kronenberg, M.D., Ph.D. She was a civilian, and would never understand.
"First of all, Mister Secrest," she began, surprising him with a correct form of address, "I must emphasize to you that everything you are going to see or hear in this installation is classified Top Secret."
Hope flared in Derek. As an NAOC, he wasn't cleared for Top Secret. "Actually, ma'am, there seems to have been some mistake. I'm not—"
"Yes, you are." Kronenberg slid a paper across the desk. It looked impressively official. "You would have been ordered here sooner, but the background investigation took a little while."
Derek's curiosity would no longer be denied. "Ma'am, may I ask what this installation is, and why I'm here?"
"No, you may not. That's on a need-to-know basis, and all you need to know is that you're under orders to cooperate to the fullest with certain tests that will be administered over the next few days. If necessary, I can bring in a senior Navy officer to give you those orders verbally. But I don't think that will be necessary. Do you?"
"No, ma'am." Derek decided he didn't like Doctor Kronenberg very much. And her "next few days" language was a stake through the heart of his last hopes of rejoining Class 22-14.
"The tests," Doctor Kronenberg resumed, "will be harmless and painless, although I can't promise a total absence of discomfort. And now I'll turn you over to an orderly who'll conduct you to your quarters—you'll be sharing a bunkroom with three others. The personal effects you brought are already there. You won't need your uniforms, though; you'll be issued clothing. Report back here at 0800 tomorrow morning. We may be seeing each other again from time to time during the tests."
Be still, my beating heart! Derek consoled himself with the mental sarcasm as he took his leave of Doctor Kronenberg. She'd clearly dismissed him from her mind already, turning her attention to a sheet of hardcopy which doubtless concerned her next laboratory specimen.
Afterwards, Derek found he had no clear recollection of the days that followed.
In some ways, it wasn't as bad as he'd feared. His schedule wasn't particularly frantic, if only because of the logjam of people being processed through this fairly half-assed installation—it reeked of new construction, and his bunkroom was like Indoctrination Battalion revisited save for the lack of full-bag inspections. But his free time was so excruciatingly boring that he found himself welcoming the summons to more tests.
At least at first . . .
A lot of it was the same sort of thing he'd gotten at Pensacola, only more so. But the drugs were different, or maybe there were just more of them. At any rate, his sense of time became disjointed. He didn't like that. And he didn't like the dreams . . . especially because he wasn't always sure whether he'd been asleep or awake when he'd dreamed them. Besides, they weren't like normal dreams.
At first, he had trouble putting his finger on what it was that made them different. Then it finally came to him. Most dreams—even the scary ones and the far worse ones that make one feel unclean for having dreamed them—have a certain basic familiarity. One knows where they come from, however little one may want to know. But these were intruders. Not necessarily bad. Just . . . alien.
These thoughts occupied his mind in the intervals between tests when he was certain he was awake. There was little else to occupy it. He began to suspect that the installation's drabness went beyond the military norm—that it was intentional, designed to reduce extraneous sensory stimulation to the absolute minimum. If so, its designers could congratulate themselves on a complete success. Just about the only distractions were his fellow test subjects.
Not that they were all that distracting. In fact the standard-issue clothes made them, too, as nondescript as possible. He'd hoped to run into Paul Rinnard, but was only able to exchange a single brief wave with the fighter jock across a room. He barely saw his three roommates—their schedules were too different, for the tests were carried out with scant regard for day and night. Despite occasional exchanges of pleasantries, he never really struck up a conversation with any of them. Everyone else made even less of an impression.
Except for a certain tall woman . . .
Derek never actually met her. He saw her exactly once, and they never spoke. But, once seen, she was difficult to forget.
He was fairly sure she wasn't military; her thick hair, of a brown so dark as to look black in most lights, was too long, almost down to the small of her back. And, although her clear olive skin showed no overt signs of aging, something indefinable made her seem older than most of this crowd. He wasn't sure the word "beautiful" fit her—certainly not in the conventional fashion-model sense, for her features, while very regular, were too strong and her straight nose too prominent. But her eyes were a lovely gray, strikingly light under her black brows and against her Mediterranean complexion. Derek got a good look at those eyes at their brief encounter, for she turned and gave him a long, wordless regard. It later occurred to him to feel puzzlement at that serene, unsurprised appraisal from someone he was absolutely certain he'd never met.
But then, he reflected, maybe she was just another of the strange dreams that came in the timeless limbo between sleep and wakefulness. It was so difficult to be sure.
Finally, there came a time when there were no more tests. Derek, headachy and out of sorts, was summoned to Doctor Kronenberg's office. A Navy captain was there, and he ended up doing all the talking. Kronenberg stayed in the background, gazing intently at Derek, her expression unreadable.
"Mister Secrest," the captain began, "I just want to assure you—without going into specifics—that what you've been put through here has been of the utmost importance." He glanced at a sheet of hardcopy, gave Derek an odd look, and exchanged a quick eye-contact with Kronenberg. Then he cleared his throat and resumed. "Otherwise we wouldn't have hauled you up here from Pensacola just before your final week."
Derek believed that the captain, a weathered sea-dog type with short iron-gray hair, was sincere about the last part. "Sir," he ventured, "I've sort of lost track of time here. I don't suppose it's possible—?"
"No." the captain shook his head. "There's no way you could catch up with your class at Pensacola if you rejoined it now. Sorry—I know how much that means. But don't worry, you're still on track for commissioning."
"Yes, sir," Derek mumbled.
"In the meantime, since your training schedule has already been disrupted anyway, and since Doctor Kronenberg believes some R and R is indicated for the participants in these tests, we're giving you two weeks' extra leave."
"Uh, thank you, sir." Curiouser and curiouser, thought Derek.
"The only caveat is that we'll need to know where you can be reached during that time. I believe your parents' home is here in Virginia, down in Tidewater."
"Actually, sir, that's my grandfather's home. My parents are no longer living."
"Oh yes, that's right," said the captain, obviously annoyed with himself. "I remember now. Your grandfather . . ." His voice trailed off, and his frown deepened. Derek wondered why. "Anyway, will you be going there?"
"Yes, sir."
"Excellent. Now, I believe you've already been cautioned about the security classification of this entire process. You're not to discuss what you've seen or done here with anyone—including your grandfather."
"Yes, sir. I understand." Not that I'd be able to tell anybody anything even if I wanted to, Derek added silently. The whole thing's a total mystery to me.
"Very well, then. Here are your leave papers."
"Excuse me, sir, but on my return to Pensacola, who do I report to for reassignment to a new class?"
The captain gave Doctor Kronenberg another surreptitious glance. "I believe you'll be contacted before your leave is over. All will be made clear at that time. If there are no further questions, you're dismissed."